nonsense (18/09/25)

Sometimes I want to tell people all the things I have been healing from in the past few years but then I remember I am not the main character and these battles I fought were supposed to be silent for a reason.

I am so so proud of myself for handling things better and better. I saw him a few months ago for the first time after the frosting. My mind was okay but my body was shaking. Interesting to say at least.

The "ireland" wound I have in my heart hurt this month for the first time in so long. It took me by surprise. Like... will it ever stop? Or will I... get used to it?

I keep looking at wedding and baby pictures and I miss my future family so so much. I wonder if I have met husband already. Is it him? Do my kids think I was cool in my 20s?

I keep thinking I might actually be the luckiest person alive.

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