nonsense (20/9/24)

am i a bad friend?
he's walking the streets i used to walk and it's making me feel so uneasy.
i have my own room for the first time ever, i love it so much.
i wonder what cowboy no.1 would think about it. i'd love to spill all the first week of college tea to him. i have no one else to tell it to. 
how did i go from feeling so loved to feeling like I'm the only person i can trust?
next week it'll be 9 months.

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