the cake

 afterwards

i was so
content?
almost as if my life
well-
 not just my life
but the whole earth
stopped spinning for a while
everything was put on hold
nothing mattered
it was just me and him
- the centre of the whole world -
me and him
and the silly little thing that we did
and i almost wanted to laugh
i dreamed of this for
  s o   l o n g 
i was desperate
i would sell my soul
and almost exactly when i stopped wanting it
when i moved on
when life started feeling good again
free of all those feelings 
i couldn't didn't want to talk about
this happened
- isn't life funny?
  06/07/23

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